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mollymauk tealeaf. ([personal profile] mauks) wrote2018-05-15 05:05 am
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☽ open post.



i am not afraid of dying, I am afraid i haven’t been alive enough.
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i'M BACK / i want a hecked up resurrection ritual/cheating molly from the brink of death w. magic

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ok i made a starter too i got this.

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[ Caleb's hands haven't stopped shaking since Lorenzo and his team rode away.He remembers them being steady under worse circumstances, when his actions were guided by Trent Ikithon's cool voice. They hadn't been shaking when Caleb set flame to traitors and tortured spies, but they're shaking now as he works his way through a muddle of a spell that he only knows from half-memory and whispers.

He is no cleric. He is a destroyer, not a healer. He isn't like Jester, favored by something holy. But he is the only caster left and he has to try. He has to try something. If he fails, then they will all try something more dangerous and more desperate. Keg is pale and shaken, but she admits in reluctant whispers about Shady Creek Run's temple, about the kind of price they'd have to pay since they didn't have the gold between them.

It all comes back to blood anyway, Caleb thinks, as he slashes his palms open in the dark. The drips and drabs of his blood join the stains spread across Molly's chest, along with the sprinkling of gold dust and the crushed herbs Beau and Nott had painstakingly collected in the fading light. Blood is all Caleb can truly offer, and he thinks what's left of their little group would have spilled far more than anything Caleb's palms could produce to bring Molly back. They have lost enough. None of them want—

Well, it doesn't matter now. This ritual will work or it won't. Caleb doesn't know how to pray to the Moonweaver, but he thinks if any deity is willing to favor Molly it would be the one he worshiped. So Caleb kneels at Molly's head, takes his face in two bloody palms, and whispers all the old words he remembers from before.

He is not so powerful as he once was. He cannot know whether or not this will work, or if he will need to ask Beauregard to come and help him lift Molly back onto the back of their horse to be lashed into place before they go to barter something more than what Caleb is promising now to a goddess he knows painfully little about.

Please, come back. ]
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i regret instigating this.

[personal profile] potential 2018-07-21 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ Most of the time, Caleb's magic drains from him slowly. Spells for him are like rivulets of water leaving a pool. There had been a time when the pool had been an ocean. Trent Ikithon had showed him how to widen and dig out the edges, how to make himself strong enough to contain limitless depths. When Caleb broke, the pool shrunk. When he'd knelt and cupped Molly's face in bloody hands, he'd wondered if he had enough to give. Would the spell fail because Caleb was too weak, even with the blood? Even with the haphazard appeal to a god he knows so little about?

For a minute, he thinks he must have failed. The spell sparks and gutters, like a match trying to catch in a gale-storm. It isn't working, until suddenly, it is.

This is no trickle. It isn't even a steady flame. The spell catches hold and tears; Caleb cries out in shocked pain as Molly twitches in his grip. There's a great and terrible ripping within him as blood run freely from his palms to mingle with the fresh-flowing tears from Molly's eyes. His breath comes in sharp, labored pants as his shoulders hunch. It feels important to keep hold of Molly. Until Molly screams, Caleb isn't certain the spell is working, just that something very old is bearing down on him and working its will. All that can be done is to keep speaking into the blinding agony.

He should have known it would be like this. Birth is pain. Surely that would be the price paid for any return.

As Molly's scream dulls to a rasping, gasping breaths, Caleb's back bows further. Molly is breathing. His hands clutch Caleb's sleeves. A miracle, Caleb thinks, reeling at how he's been granted another in his short lifetime. ]


I...

[ How is Caleb supposed to explain? ]

It is good to see you.

[ Relief is almost crippling. Caleb's eyes are wet. This moment is surreal; he feels almost giddy over it even as exhaustion and weakness sink into his very bones. His hands don't leave Molly's face.

Is this how it will feel when he bends reality beneath his hands? It's hard to imagine anything beyond this moment, and the incredible miracle of having snatched their friend back from death. ]
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[personal profile] potential 2018-07-22 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
They will be better now.

[ The price is settled and paid. Caleb doesn't know what Beau would have given or what Nott would have offered, but he knows it's better to have bartered only himself. And it seems to have gone well enough. Molly is alive, speaking and breathing again, skin warming under Caleb's slashed-ragged palms. ]

Try not to move. I have—there's a potion left.

[ All the magic Caleb ever learned was rooted in destruction. Trent Ikithon taught him to unravel a man. He taught Caleb how to use pain to break a mind apart. He never taught him how to knit a man back together when he was done. There had never been a need. Even now, Caleb think that kind of magic would come apart in his hands. He is not made to be a balm to anyone's suffering.

When Molly's hand finds his face, he's aware of his own exhaustion. He will have to get Molly back to camp, but not just yet. Gently, he smooths the hair back off Molly's forehead, trying his best not to leave traces of blood in his wake. ]


You're alright.

[ Caleb's voice dips. It's unclear if he's reassuring Molly or reminding himself of that fact. ]
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[personal profile] potential 2018-07-22 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ They'll need to do something for shelter. And they'll need to do something to track their friends. Caleb will send Frumpkin, but he can't afford to leave his body until Molly's lifted out of the dirt entirely. His thoughts stray briefly to Molly's ridiculous tapestry. Perhaps that would be the best bet they had for keeping warm, because Caleb thought it unwise to start traveling until Molly's had at least a few hours to recover.

Practical, if panicky, considerations break as Molly's fingers catch at his wrist, glance along the ragged gash on his palm. But that's still not Caleb's first thought when Molly asks if he's alright. He'd been so far out of range for most of the fighting. He'd been too far to do anything at all as Lorenzo had plunged the glaive down into Molly's chest. ]


Ja. Nothing touched me. [ His voice is shaky. ] That's how it goes sometimes, when you stand at least twenty feet back.

[ It's another reason why it should be Caleb paying the price of this miracle. He had been so far out of danger. He had been so close to leaving before it ever began. Blood and discomfort and the weight of promised favor to a goddess were small prices to pay considering how close he'd come to leaving them all in the lurch. ]

Do you remember what happened?
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[personal profile] potential 2018-07-24 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ Even in their present situation, Molly's casual flirtation has an effect. Caleb, having spent the better part of a day uncertain whether or not he would ever hear it again, has to swallow an almost hysterical burst of laughter. Every passing moment is further reassurance that Molly isn't about to suddenly slip away again. Caleb wants to bend forward, press his forehead to Molly's and fumble his way through breathless thanks for this minor miracle.

Instead, he lets one hand drift slowly to Molly's shoulder, thumb resting on his collarbone. He can feel the rise and fall of Molly's chest as he breathes. The ugly injury there is knitted together; Molly's scars have settled back as if they had never been disturbed. Caleb wants to put his hand there, but there's enough blood already without the addition of his own palm prints. ]


They got away, [ Caleb tells him, trying to head off the question that follows. ] But we know where they're going.

[ And Caleb is going to kill them.

He has told no one this. It is an unspoken assumption. But there is a difference between the heat of battle and what Caleb has made up his mind to do. They will take back their friends from these people, and then Caleb will go to work on them. Payment in kind. ]


Does anything still hurt?

[ Their last potion. Their only potion, scrounged from the detritus of the fight. Caleb suspects it fell from a torn pocket, but it doesn't matter. It'll do the trick now that there's life in Molly's body again. ]
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weeps about it

[personal profile] potential 2019-02-03 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ Exhaustion is creeping in, making itself known as Molly smiles up at him from his lap. Caleb is seized with a terrible awareness of how fragile this moment is. How easy had it been for Lorenzo to snuff Molly out? No more effort than blowing out a candle. All that blood, all those tears, and it would be such a thin bulwark against the violence of the world.

The moments when Caleb wants to protect these people are so difficult to weather. He is aware of his own shortcomings. He is aware of his defects and his selfishness. He is just as liable to run away as he is to stand and fight. His fingers card gently through Molly's hand. ]


I know.

[ Caleb will make it so. He's already sliced into his skin to buy Molly back. Perhaps whatever gods were observing will grant them some sort of favor because of it.

Slowly, Caleb becomes aware of a line of connection. He'd felt it open and ignored it. He feels it now as Molly's hand settles over his, as Molly shifts and tests his body and pain sparks between them. That isn't Caleb's to feel, and yet— ]


Come. I'll help you sit up, and you can drink this.

[ Whatever Caleb does or doesn't feel will have to be puzzled over later. Is this the price? Is this how he keeps Molly alive, by linking their very souls together? He needs to wrap his own palms back up, but he fumbles to help Molly into a sitting position first, watching every single wince and hitch to feel them mirrored in his own body. ]
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[personal profile] potential 2019-02-27 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ Molly will need to sleep. (Caleb will need to sleep.) They will have time for that. They've lost any chance at surprising their quarry. Now they will need to be very smart. In the back of his head, where he had put everything that wasn't this spell and the task of dragging Molly back from beyond the veil, there lives a cold, vengeful, calculating urge towards revenge.

Yes, they will get their friends back. But Caleb also wants to burn the ones who took them in the first place, and the man who nearly claimed a fourth traveling companion.

His fingers find Molly's face, linger briefly on his jaw before he grips Molly's shoulders and begins levering him up. His palms flare up in pain, mingling with second-hand exhaustion and the sensation of a phantom thread stringing them together. That's something to worry about later. Something he can read on when they are back in Zadash and far from this. Clumsily, he props Molly up, braces him with one sticky palm against his back. ]


It will be easier after you've slept. There is food back at our camp. [ And firblog, who drifted out of the bushes as if their tragedy had summoned her. ] You'll feel like yourself again soon.

[ Maybe. Caleb had taken a risk with this spell, and it had burned something out of him in the process. The side effects are all a bit beyond his understanding. ]

You will be okay.

[ But still, Caleb speaks this into the air. He has bent the world between his hands to bring Molly back to them. Surely this one last reassurance can be granted as well. ]
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wrappin' this y/n?

[personal profile] potential 2019-03-10 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ Putting his arm beneath Molly, taking his weight, Caleb can almost fool himself that they're stumbling back from some innocuous scrape. Not from the aftermath of Caleb bending reality around them, wrenching Molly's soul back from the grasp of a diety far stronger than he could ever hope to be.

Perhaps the tangible sense of connection between them is punishment for that. Perhaps it's simply because he'd made a mistake. Either way, he has Molly back and they can continue chasing their friends. His fingers slot along Molly's ribs, holding him tightly. He feels steadier, even knowing he has done something incredibly dangerous without full knowledge of the consequences. ]


Yes, [ Caleb promises, suspecting that any other answer may no longer be possible for him. ] Yes, I will stay. All of us will be with you.

[ And inevitably, after they've returned and tears have been shed and they all lie down to sleep, Caleb will be settled in beside Molly. ]